~Part Of Life~

already changed

2010-05-05T00:03:00.003+08:00

for those who are wondering why am I not updating for so long,
it's because I've change blog!

you can go visit if you want to at http://bluesandred.blogspot.com/

remember to tag if you're there.

God bless.

sign off, for the last time here.

Last of the last

2009-11-29T00:03:00.001+08:00

this is the last time i am posting on this blog.
too much rubbish, too much feelings were imprinted.
that's it. will be changing blog add. bye.

oh....my.........

2009-10-30T00:00:00.002+08:00

after reading that,

my heart just stopped for a moment.

it hurts. PAIN.

i..........really dunno what to do.

should I smile? should I frown?

should I bless you? or should I fight for it?

man. why out of so many, it is u who is fighting with me?

brain freezed, heart stopped, eyes popped, etc

gg-fied.

God, I really can't bear it. Although I know somethings aren't meant to be. But is this really the signs of answers? I wonder how much I could take it.

brink of break

2009-10-21T23:24:00.002+08:00

As if my life is a non-stop remix now,

my record is on the brink of breaking.

there's really too much for me to juggle,
especially when they come chasing you like hyenas.

when, when will this stop.

pray, pray when it will stop.

My love for God, my love for you

2009-10-05T11:46:00.004+08:00

My mind is blank right now.
Trying not to devise too much about it.
Really loved the wind yesterday,
how can I ever enjoy such scenery again.
Breezes calmed my body, my heart and my soul.
God was giving me the sense of peace in times of troubles.

Somehow I think I am being immature handling such emotions.
Should be more 成熟.
I think feelings for a person goes like this:

crush---->like---->unstable---->nearly dead---->together---->forever

and that's the process of love.
it may seems the middle part is the most jialat,
but being together forever is what all about.
Being able to accept the other party weaknesses,
is what I'm trying to learn.
For past I love with my mind,
but now I'm learning to love with my heart.
And for Christ has already lived in my heart,
I will love her like how Christ has loved me.

______ I love you, I am willing to be your support, whenever you need me or not.
I myself ain't perfect, but I know through Christ I will hold this on.
For Christ will lead me to do what's best for you and me, even if it meant not to be together.
A process of understanding and giving love, this is how Christ taught me in a way.
And prayers are the essential of love.

If I were to choose to only love either God or you,
I will love God, cause' I myself can't give you the best blessing in the world,
But God is the blesser of the universe.
He will blessed you so much more than I could even do or imagine.
So ________ be it you'll or you won't love me back,
I won't expect anything,
as this, unconditional love,
is what makes up the perfect Christ love for us.

thank you God,
than you ______,
thank you to the past which gave me a heartly lesson on love.

黑色柳丁

2009-09-28T23:10:00.002+08:00

I think this is more than just words.
I am feeling pains in every part of my body, physically and emotionally.
just like this song 黑色柳丁:

今天我心情有一点怪怪
可是说不出到底为什么
好像有一点悲哀的徵兆
可是病因不知道
头上有橘色的加州阳光
我的口袋只有黑色的柳丁
我只有一个蓝色的感觉
不要问我为什么
很想说但又感觉没有话好说
我只恨我自己逃不出这监狱
或许我是个没有出息的小虫
不该一直作梦你不是个英雄
叶子用坠落证明换季
可我昏昏沉沉没有办法醒
你愿意做个英雄
还是你会要放弃
天是亮的却布满乌云
所有焦距被闪光判了死刑
你想做什么英雄
我看你不过是佣兵
我只想哭只想哭只想哭
我只想哭只想哭只想哭
今天一起床我就头痛
不管吃了几瓶药都没有用
心情有一点莫名的焦躁
你离我越远越好
外面有橘色的加州阳光
我却躲在自己孤独的黑洞
我只有一个小小的要求
就是请你Leave me alone
我只想哭只想哭只想哭
我只想哭只想哭只想哭

I think this song is good enough to explain my current mood.

Really facing alot of shit right now. Studies especially. I really feel drowning by the toll.
ALot of bad news. Really bad news.

And how much I hope she would even notice me a little. But I guess she herself is also facing problems. I guess it is just one way.

thank God for giving me gift of writting songs. I think it is the only way I can express my emotions.

..........

2009-09-14T00:27:00.002+08:00

with vision being fogged by doubts,
my heart continue to desire, burnt.
its probably a wrong expression,
but when I realised I chose to ignore you today. (though we didn't meet each other much)
I regretted.

Yet another long time til we talk, yet another time til we meet.

somehow whatever I wished for, it always backfired. pretty badly.
is it so that for my life I can only distanced myself, and suffer the feels?
if it is, take my desire away.

nights are falling, days in school are getting shittier
but my mind drives me to think about you.
learn to wish the best, pray the best.
For you.
that is.
Perhaps I won't know what you are going through,
let my heart prays for you.

and you probably won't know, how much I miss(ed) you.

......

2009-09-10T00:40:00.002+08:00

Is this just imagination, illusion, or what?

Many times it had been like this, many times it faded, many times it became stronger,

Dream or Reality, I can't tell which is which.

Answers, answers, time will tell

Answers, answers, written since I was here

So which is what, what is which, which is which, what is what,

I'm so confused....

Emotions are strengthen each day with a glimpse or thoughts about you,

But I wonder what is which, which is what, which is which, what is what

If only you tell me,

and tell me something good

though I know it will turn out bad,

or at least in my mind it has.

Ha....

talents

2009-07-06T00:01:00.002+08:00

today sermon was about usuage of talents,

not admiring and just showing off your skills,

but use it, train, work your best for what God gave you,

and serve Him.

as said by Paul.

oh by the way, I didn't fail my common test after all, teacher said it was a computing mistake

thank God =)

属天的平安

2009-07-04T11:54:00.002+08:00

This morning I found a news very disturbing and discouraging for me,
I FAILED MY COMMON TESTS VERY BADLY.

..........

I was really very sad and discourage, I wonder what went wrong.
I studied so hard for it but yet I didn't even pass it.

I was really upset with myself.

As I cry out to the Lord, He told me,

"In Philippians's chap 3 v12-16 it says about forgetting your past(rather the bad doings), and aim for your future, aim for your goal, what you experience today results in tomorrow harvest."
So I was really touched by God's encouragement and hence I wrote this song to give thanks to Him.

Here's the lyrics:

流下无奈的眼泪
失败失去了信心
当所有动力已经变成无力
灰尘一点的飘落
与眼泪一起相逢
人生已经掉进最远的深处

但耶稣坚持他道路
他这一生遇上许多挫折
为了是要救我而被定十字架

他这一生很爱我
我却只心情衰落
求主你赐我一个清洁的心
属天的平安温暖
失败昏暗的生活
上帝早把我问题放在他的心

This song is call 属天的平安, because God gave me a heart felt peace which comes from Him.
I love you God, you are my savior, you are my life.
Love you before anything else, that's what I am learning now.

Oh if you want to hear the melody of the song, you can ask me =)

Hello!

2009-06-26T23:02:00.002+08:00

It's been more than 2 months since I last blogged.
Gosh, many things happen in between these times.

But I will always thank God for what has been happening, and really thank Him
for taking good care me. Xie Xie! =D

Love God before everything, and only will you find purpose in everything.
Trust me, no no no, trust God.

Love God, then love music
Love God, then love her
Love God, then love everything I love :)

阿桑再见

2009-04-09T00:11:00.004+08:00

咳~

阿桑死了，

对，

就是那个唱《叶子》，《一直很安静》的女歌手。

她在4月6日因乳癌末期而死了

悴弱的生命，就这样被拿走了。

阿桑啊，你永远会被怀念着的！

why not?

2009-04-05T23:25:00.002+08:00

why not?

is it becos its all wrong?

or scared?

i wanna give it a shot.

i really meant what i said,

although i wa half-joking though,

so,

why not?

2009-03-21T10:45:00.002+08:00

Yeah! I passed everything! I am so darnnnnnnnnn happy :)

thanks everyone who have been praying for me.

thank you

and thank God ;)

2009-03-19T23:49:00.001+08:00

I am really very scared.

Scared of tml result.

I really scared I fail any modules

I dun wan fail any modules

I DUN WAN

T.T

I dun wan......

2009-03-07T23:00:00.002+08:00

I just felt,

very sian,

nt becos got nothing to do,

but just suddenly too much up my mind,

i dunno if i'm doing right,

i just felt i do it for the sake of,

ahhh

watever lar -.-

sian =/

2009-03-07T00:44:00.002+08:00

freaking bored!!!!!!!

no mouse, no game

no job, no money

no girls, NO FUN!!!

LOL that was kidding the last part.

sigh

sian

2009-03-06T00:44:00.002+08:00

I dunno if this is right,
but sometimes I really hope if it is just let it be my way.

hope so.

专注于耶稣

2009-03-05T21:45:00.002+08:00

this was a song i wrote to rebekah the previous friday, while she was feeling low, I just had this feeling to write to cheer her up. The song is call 专注于耶稣.

专注于耶稣

专注于耶稣
我的救主
我的宝血
我的朋友
要感谢耶稣
让我得胜利
胜过一切试探一切罪恶

要有信心（要有信心）
知道主耶稣
会带我走一生
只要信靠凡是能解决
我的主大过你的愁烦

专注于耶稣
我的救主
我的宝血
我的朋友
要感谢耶稣
让我得胜利
胜过一切问题一切烦恼

要有勇气来面对害怕
知道主耶稣
已帮我计划明天
凡要信靠没事没事
我的主啊我相信你

专注于耶稣
我的救主
我的宝血
我的朋友
要感谢耶稣
让我得胜利胜过一切试探一切罪恶

stay focus with God

2009-02-20T23:13:00.002+08:00

Stay focused stay dilligent in the things of God

- rest in His WORD and expect His Promises.

God is faithful and you are of great value to him,

you are His beloved the apple of His eye.

found this in one of a myspace.

keep staying focus Titus!

活出真正的你

2009-02-01T01:51:00.002+08:00

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

(Got this stupid link from ZhenWei. Well since I’m bored might as well play along XD)

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
一比一（By 范玮琪）[One for One sia. No bargain. Dun try cheat me XD]

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
会呼吸的痛 (By 梁静茹) [When they breathe they feel pain? Eww that’s sadist]

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
男人KTV (By 胡彦斌) [Spot on. Just feel like singing my lungs out.]

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
幸德瑞拉 (By 戴佩妮)
[What? My life like Cinderella? You gotta be kidding me…]

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Better Off Alone (By DJ Jurgen present Alice Deejay) [So I’m better off alone myself than accompaniment. What the heck.]

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
保护你 (By 曹格)
[I protect them or they protect me?]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
天使忌妒的生活 (By 曹格)
[HAHA yea right. Angels jealous of their life my foot XD I’m so mean.]

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Love Song (By 方大同)
[Love song~ that’s all she gives me. Dots.]

WHAT IS 2+2?
祷告 (By 赞美之泉) [COOL! 2 ppl or more pray together and He will be among us. =D]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
第九夜 (By CoCo李纹) [You mean on the 9th Night we spent together? Hmm.. Interesting.. I cant rmb anything on that night though =X ]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
欧若拉 (By 张韶涵) [She’s just as beautiful as the aurora in the north pole. Ahh~ How nice.]

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
沉默玩具 (By 曹格) [LOL? A quiet life who watch ppl by past my life? Dots. ]

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Susan说 (By 陶喆) [Probably something Susan said to me. I dunno what. But probably what she said.]

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
眼泪成诗 (By 孙燕姿) [Heh! OMIGOSH! This is sick! Coincidence eh?]

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
飞机场的10:30 (By陶喆)
[Perhaps they gave birth to me when they’re at airport around 10:30 that time.]

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
丝路 (By 梁静茹) [Silk dance. Gay.]

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
就是爱你 (By陶喆) [YEAH! LOVE ME LOVE ME!]

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
If I ain’t got you (By Alicia Keys feat. Usher) [nothing interest me when I aint got you.]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
月亮代表谁的心 (By 陶喆) [like the moon I guess?]

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
我们小时候 (By TANK) [OK at least the bad is alr over. DEPRIVED CHILDHOOD ANYONE!?]

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
你要的爱 (By 戴佩妮) [Die in your love huh? Will I?]

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
敢不敢 (By 罗志祥) [Wah next time play true or dare must becareful liao. Cannot anyhow dare ppl.]

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
the mrbrown show 2 June 2006: eX(ns)Men 3 (By Mr. Brown) [LOL! Coincidence sia! This podcast really my fav comedy joke.]

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Yesterday Once More (By The Carpenters) [How can you not be touched and cry when u hear Karen Carpenter sing?]

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
戴上我的爱 (By 潘玮柏) [If I want to?]

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
走火入魔 (By 丁当 and 阿信) [Hell yea. I dun want to get so indulge in something and lose myself.]

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Fool Again (By Westlife) [Perhaps not. I’m being fool again. X( ]

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
姑娘 (By 曹格) [My sissy side? Since when I have it?]

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW? Love Fool (By New Found Glory)
[Being a love fool I guess.]

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
活出真正的你 (By 有情天音乐)
[Nice! Love this title =D enjoy!]

They say tag people to do this. So I tag:

Cheng Hui
Vina
Xin Yi
Pearl
Winson
Yun Ling
Wendy
Wan Fong
Seth
Pei Xin

Special Moment

2009-01-19T23:50:00.005+08:00

Today CF was very special to me,
I dunno why,
Perhaps it's the last for this acad yr,
but I just felt very relaxing.

I dunno,
I starts to believe that God DO really bless CF in many ways.
Was too blind to see it last time.

A fresh starts, away with all bad things and errors,
mistakes we've learned,
skills we've mastered,
for CF,
for GOD!

"God doesn't want your capabilities, He wants your availability.
If you give Him your availability, He'll give you the capability."

breezy breeze breeze

2009-01-18T22:51:00.001+08:00

Breezy breezes continue to breeze through my face. . .

I think I began to finally understand what's God plan for me in Christian Fellowship. . .

breezy breeze

2009-01-18T00:01:00.002+08:00

三姑六婆的毒舌
是可以毒死人的。。

Pls mind ur words.

Steady steady steady...
Had some fun today,
Slack off my stress from the crazy week in school.

I really enjoyed the breeze at the bay alot,
I just couldn't express it with words.

My friend told me I'm unconsciously noticing her.
I told him is it?
I thought I was looking at the sky.

Well, she's ok.
But hey, she's too young lar.
See how lorh~
LOL.

Whew

2009-01-09T23:53:00.002+08:00

Just came back,

whew,

totally sweat out all my troubles,

really felt much better,

although only got 3 of us playing, but I guessed we enjoyed alot

when I'm playing basketball, that moment,

its seems the world is out of my sight,

I just couldn't be bothered with all the shit

felt so relaxing

And YEAH! I ate my MEGA prosperity beef burger meal!

it was seriously filling, I couldnt finish the burger

played my fill, ate my fill

accompanied by the cool breeze in the moonlight

load off

2009-01-09T18:51:00.001+08:00

decided to go out and play basketball tonight and eat MEGA PROSPERITY BURGER

just too much loads in my mind le

Huey Jia was right

I need some time out

too cooped up with all the shit in school

2009-01-09T15:16:00.003+08:00

I'm all tired and weared out

facing all this stuffs

though I din stay in school for more than 5 hrs this week,

the report took me hell

and flu plus fever is the result of my "work"

2009-01-08T22:20:00.002+08:00

Seriously, I lost interest in my studies le..

I really dunno how to keep myself on-going to complete this course.

Things are repeating like Deja Vu to me,

failing of common test(s)

unable to hand up project deadline

lost total motivation to even go school

Practicals very far behind, doesn't seem that I can make it liao

Sigh,

And yet so much commotion in my cca

Argh!

WHERE'S THE PURPOSE TO KEEP MYSELF STUDY!?

Pls lar

SIAN DIAO ALREADY

and at this point,

it just seems, I' m all left alone to face all this problems

ALONE

Aches all around my body, I just can't focus

I don't even think I could survived til CNY eve,

like literally

I need a hand, a helping hand,

to overcome myself...

SHUT UP U!
STOP CALLING ME THAT!

2009-01-04T00:57:00.003+08:00

你不是真正的快乐 - 五月天

人群中哭着
你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会梦或痛或心动了
你已经决定了你已经决定了

你静静忍着
紧紧把昨天在拳心握着
而回忆越是甜就是越伤人
越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

这世界笑了于是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则不是你的选择
于是你含着眼泪飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞地走着

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了然后才后悔着

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了

你值得真正的快乐
你应该脱下你穿的保护色
为什么失去了还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让悲伤全部结束在此刻
重新开始活着

2009-01-01T13:03:00.002+08:00

Happy 2009 New Year!

Have a blessed days to come =D

Merry Christmas!!

2008-12-25T16:03:00.000+08:00

to everyone out there,

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

2008-12-22T03:04:00.003+08:00

I HATE IT!

seriously,

get out of my mind.

and YOU,

stop bothering me like a buzz fly.

and YOU,

don't act like you're somebody,

when you're NOT.

happy holiday

2008-12-01T11:27:00.003+08:00

Wouldn't be blogging for a period til my exams over.

Meanwhile,

Counting down to CHRISTMAS!!

Happy Holidays everyone =)

Mission Trip

2008-11-14T19:08:00.003+08:00

Hi I'll be going to Malaysia for 3 days(Fri - Sun) for mission trip. The place is call 振林山, a town in Johor Bahru. I'll be doing child ministries over there. So those who sees this pray for the entire team thanks =D

In His service,
Titus

My words

2008-11-03T01:16:00.002+08:00

Every moment in my life,

I'm growing physically,

I'm growing emotionally,

I'm growing spiritually,

and each time I learned something,

I grow!

Grow into a stronger man,

Grow into a matured man,

Grow into a Christian!

Every moment I ask

Every moment I act

Every moment I reflect

And God is always there.

I really wanna stop sinning BIG-TIME.

really.

And I notice a change in me this past 3 years.

I've really become more sensible, more knowledgeable, more matured.

But I've also become more arrogant, more egoistic, more greedy.

Looks like as you grow, you really faces more challenges and hump in your life.

I admit, I'm a guy who needs regconition,

but I realised, is it really that important?

I think a testimony is worth more than just a regconition.

Whatever I do, I do it for a purpose.

Used to do it for being a nuisance

Doing it for regconition

Hope to do it for testimony

I guessed that's my aim for now.

CAMPUS CRUSADE and CHRISTIAN FELLOWSHIP

if there's a title for my poly stage,

these two are the words.

God put me into this 2 CCAs,

for a purpose. Or 2. Or maybe more.

Each time I spent my life there,

I experiences different things, different realization, different lessons.

In Crusade, I seeked God as hard as I could

In CF, I lead as great as I could

But none prevail.

But through these

I learnt to be patient

MUST WAIT. DUN GAN JIONG.

I really thanked all the seniors in these 2 CCAs.

They've really been a great role model for me

Pushes me to do many things I've never done before. Spiritually. Good.

Thanks Daniel Liu, who never gave up on me throughout these few years despite whatever happens to me. He taught me alot of principles in life and one thing, always faced things with a smile. He may not know this, but I really admired him about it. When he's facing his obstacles in poly, he smiled. When he's facing problems in his works, he smiled. When I don't turn up for DG, he smiled and called me to come back. He's the those kind who really commit into taking care of the cell. Although he's always being a clown, but at least he's influence us in a positivie way. Daniel, thank you for being there always. :)

I'll remember you for life. Mark my words. Haha.

feeling good

2008-10-19T16:21:00.002+08:00

I'm telling ya'

for the first time in my life,
I'm really feeling good about this semester.
And I think for once I gonna study REAL hard(Haha I try)

All for one purpose:

Glory for God

Sicked

2008-10-13T23:19:00.002+08:00

I'm like, totally sicked.

Not sicked in the brain,
but sicked in the brands.

Cough, flu, fever, headache etc.

Just WHAT i need for new semester,
like,
really -.-

Titus

Search

2008-10-12T21:09:00.003+08:00

The Search For Accountability Partner/Group

WAnted! :
Alive(Both Spiritually and Physically)

Age :
17-23

Height :
Umm.. At least visible to me

Weight :
Just don't spoil the chair. Ok Just Kidding.

Gender :
Male or Female

Conditions :
-Time to commit the accountability
-Able to meet at least once fornightly
-Bible verses background
-Christians
-Willing to share
-Willing to learn

If you're interested, please call or sms at 81812205 to contact Titus or email Him at tell_me333@hotmail.com.

No deadline registration.

His Sincerity,
Titus

Restored! Camp 08

2008-10-09T23:21:00.002+08:00

God's work truly never ceased to amazed me.
And this year crusade camp is no exception.
I must say, to plan a camp is never an easy thing,
So let's give the camp committee some credits for putting in the efforts and hard works.
Of course, the mastermind of this camp is God =D

4 Days 3 Nights seem to past as if the bird flew from the North to East.
Although the times are short, but I really give thanks to God for putting me in Hoo's Team.
Hoo is my team name, cute isn't it?
HeeHee.
We could create any kind of cheers with that.
So smart Cerise thought of that. And she's the head of this team.
Young as she could be to Crusade, She has a soft heart that yearns to learn God's word in anyway. Humbling herself, She allows everyone to speak up and share their testimony.
God gave her a gift of leadership, not those domineering kind, but a moral support to the team and definitely the Happy Fruit among us =D
And supporting Cerise role' as an assistant leader is XiangYu.
I think he really did a great job keeping everything in the team intacts.
While Cerise did the frontier job, he was behing doing the blue collars.
I really admired such people as they are like the least noticeable, but yet very important to the entire crew. I thanked God for nuturing such youngster with a heart to serve Him. He doesn't complain, and a man with joy and sense of humor in silence.

While they're at it, I'm also growing in Christ.
God really talked to me in many ways during the camp.
Messages, worship, sharing etc.
My desire to know Him become even stronger,
And I commit to God that I surrender my life to Him,
Cos' I know He would then give me the best of my Life.
I'm growing, I'm learning, I'm experiencing.
So exciting!
And I promised God to serve Him in worship for the gifts He gave me.
Brushing up my piano, guitar, drums and volin,
For one purpose,
To praise Him
Thank You God
Thank You
I may fall
I may stumble
But I know I'm not alone in this spiritual warfare!
No matter what,
I will always have faith in You

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." Matt 6:33

And yeah.
I finally found out who's my angel.
Like, FINNAALLY
LOL.
Next year then, again

Titus

Change

2008-10-04T23:49:00.003+08:00

I thought about it,
I'm too selfish,
I'm sooooo self-centred,
I said I'll be concerning everyone's needs,
but eventually,
I'm only doing it for my own sake,
Damn,
Gotta take that off,
And caped on a new me

And forgive me =(
For I'm a newbie in such thing,
I acted strong,
but I'm not,
A tiny breeze could really blow off my confidence,
so I needa find my own assurance for now,
And sorry
For words do not speak louder than words,
I'll give my best.

Maybe

2008-09-25T01:33:00.002+08:00

"Maybe were Friends,
Maybe were More,
Maybe it's just my Imagination...."

Bye Bye

2008-08-28T13:46:00.001+08:00

Yo! I am in the Changi Airport the D40 gate there..
Outside got free internet usuage..
So use this final chance to blogg =P
Ok everyone rmb to pray for me =D

I'm offfffffffffffffffffffff~~~~

Wahaha Okie chuiz bye!
Back in 15 days

"I'll be back" Terminator.

Titus

ByE!

2008-08-28T00:51:00.002+08:00

Hey everybody,
I'm off to Vietnam le!!
15 days! Don't miss me!

And keep me in prayers (really need that alot)

Very nervous and scared.
15 days in an unfamiliar surrounding. Alone.
Gosh!

I hope I have enough stuffs to keep myself from being bored.

Rmb: KEEP ME IN PRAYERS!! =D

Will bring back nice food and things =)

ByE!!!

Titus

Complete Saga of Final Exams

2008-08-21T22:45:00.003+08:00

Final Exams done.
Finished.
Really exhausted for the past few days.
Glad its really over.

For all this, I give Thanks to the Lord.
I'm so glad, He walked with me thru the entire process.
He really answers my prayers, which gives me warmth in my heart.
谢谢你了上帝!! =D

No matter what my result is,
I know I gave my best shot,
And the rest is all up to Him

=)

++Complete Saga of Final Exams++

JEDI MUGSTER

2008-08-21T03:13:00.002+08:00

Ok, tml's the last paper(technically is today, cos 12am alr passed)
BUT I can't slacked off yet.
Sigh! I know NUTS about MI
Seriously lor, I dun wanna fail again =S
Somemore this paper weightage 50%
I'm like, 5% done.
And the paper's at 9am
....
I'm gonna stay throughout the night,
and try to get as many points as possible.
I needa become a...

JEDI MUGSTER!!!

Dear God,
I am here for the prayers

And those who sees this,
PLS PRAY FOR ME =S
THANKS

Pray For Me!!!

2008-08-15T12:02:00.001+08:00

Later at 2pm will be taking DEL Exam

Sigh,
I very scared fail,
I juz can't seems to memorise everything
if I fail
That's it

So

PLEASE PRAY FOR ME!!!
PRAYERS NEEDED NOW =(

Happy Birthday Titus!!

2008-08-06T00:13:00.002+08:00

Yeah!!

HaPpY BiRtHdAy to me!!

18 yrs old lohh!!!

Thank God for everything(sincerely)
He has gave me
and took it away from me
if not for Him
I wouldn't be the Titus I am now
So

谢谢你上帝!!! 没有你我什么都不是!! =D

And thanks my parents for raising me up
I really love them
and will love them
like how God loves me =D

pissed

2008-08-05T16:29:00.002+08:00

Damn.

Just flung my DEL Lab.

Sigh, so depressed now.

lost my appetite,

sian, I really hope I don't fail the fnal exam

Needa get it straight

And I'm really pissed off wth him,

with MI project

I know it isn't his fault,

but he really did pick the wrong time

somemore rudely

I nearly blew my top

self-control

Prayers needed.
Thanks

Til then,

MI mini project

2008-08-04T17:51:00.002+08:00

okie,
it is nearly the end of the completion of the MI project.
finally a breath to gasp...
before the exams come.

sigh
tired
damn sian
holiday coming(real soon)

til then,

visit to Daniel's workplace; cafe

2008-07-31T22:51:00.005+08:00

Yesterday Zhen Wei, Rebekah, Hannah and I decided to meet up and visit Daniel's workplace; a uluuu cafe in some part of Hillview. We overshot and had to take cab to his working place. We thought he would be SO NICE to treat us some snacks, but he says "2 cupcakes for 4 dollars". Grrr.. Rebekah nearly bit his head off. Haha. Joke Joke. We really did enjoy ourselves while Daniel's busy baking muffins. We were allowed to do graffiti on the cafe's wall and so all of us started to make fames for ourselves but writting our names and blah blah blah. I even drew a pikachu on the wall! Haha. So we began to sat down and started play heart attack and other games. We really enjoyed alot. It's been awhile since we had such outings. Then at around evening, the cafe boss came in. Woaw! The boss is same age as Daniel(24) and is a girl! Haha! Daniel! We knew it! We knew why you wanna work there le haha!! No lar jk jk... Anyway the boss is really very charming and friendly. She welcomed us and chatted with us. Soon it was time to go so we said goodbye and tell Daniel 好好做工.
Sorry for the broken english, I just write whatever comes to my mind.

Cheeesee!!

Oops!! Bloopers =P

Smile again!! =D

My name on the wall

Pika Pika!!

Thank God

2008-07-31T22:00:00.000+08:00

Thank God today for letting me clear up my FOOP labs and able to submit despite the deadline is already over.

Thank God today for letting me finish my SEDP drama play reviews in time too.

Thank God today for letting me finishing my MI Labs. It's time to start on the mini project le!!

I thank you for the day has done.
I thank you for the time I see.
I thank you really sincerily.
I thank you God for everything to me.
Amen

Life =S

2008-07-29T23:22:00.003+08:00

Goal for Grades:

EM3A - A
FOOP - C
MI - D
BIOPHY - A
DEL - B

These are my aims for my grades. MI is really damn challenging and I blew my chances for FOOP, so no choice but C is the max I could really get. DEL i gotta step up and the rest I'll leave it to God.

Recently this friend of mine went mad and started to pin-point and scold anyone around. Dots! Just because her relationships with everyone seems illusionise, that doesn't mean she can go around pucking people! Gah!

Aside from that, life's not normal. My studies really need to be straighten up. Exams in 2 weeks and I gotta get all the theories right. Sigh. I wonder if I really made the right choice coming to engineering.

MI Labs really make everyone frustrated. I just can't seems to know how to do the circuit design and plot the waveform on the oscilloscope. However, the exam for this MI is 50%, perhaps and maybe my ONLY chance to pull myself out of the red zone for this module, can't afford to fail another one =S

Vietnam trip finalised. Gonna be away for weeks til the sun dun shine. Just kidding.

And really missed her alot. I wonder when I can see her again.

Birthday coming soon!! YAY!! Finally 18 on the 6th of Aug =P
But I hope no one would give me any surprise(esp the pranks =S)

School dayz ain't great. I just hope I can go and return safely everyday. That's that.

Til then,

Joke

2008-07-28T23:20:00.001+08:00

I came across this joke online. It really gave me a good laugh.

Teacher : ' George Washington not only chopped down his father's Cherry tree, but also admitted doing it. Now do you know why his father didn't punish him ?'
One Student: ' Because George still had the axe in his hand.'

hope u like it too =D

Til then,

FOOP(FOOL)

2008-07-28T01:08:00.001+08:00

Gah!!

Why the FOOP Lab can't be open and done de!!!

Angry sia!!

Alot late for submission liao!!

ARGH!!!

All my fault!!

My Fault!!

My FAULT LAR!!!

离歌

2008-07-26T12:41:00.001+08:00

离歌

一开始我只相信　伟大的是感情
最后我无力的看清　强悍的是命运
你还是选择回去
他刺痛你的心　但你不肯觉醒
你说爱本就是梦境
跟你借的幸福　我只能还你
想留不能留　才最寂寞
没说完温柔　只剩离歌
心碎前一秒　用力的相拥著沉默
用心跳送你　辛酸离歌
原来爱是种任性　不该太多考虑
爱没有聪不聪明　只有愿不愿意
看不见永久　听见离歌

Never ending

2008-07-25T00:06:00.003+08:00

Owww...

Apparently I couldn't make it for morning's lessons in the past 2 weeks. Damn. I kept over-sleeping. I think there's really a problem with my body functions for amount of time resting and working. Sigh. Poly life huh? More like my own problems.

Exams coming soon in 2 weeks but til then alot of stuffs needed to be done. MI pracs and FOOP Labs needed to be hand in by TML(FOOP already due. Hope the teacher still accept them =S). Sigh. Bad boy me =(

Lots of modules I'm still don't really understand yet but the clock is ticking. Gah!! Stop! Freeze! No use lar.

This holiday I would be going away to Vietnam as part of my school's IAP(Dunno wat's stand for). I really hope I can help the childrens and the needy there. I would also use such opp. to spread the gospel to them =)

Blah Blah Blah

So much for now. I gotta go sleep. Bye.

Sigh,
Til then

P.S My gums hurt like hell. Headache again. My health never seems to be healthy =(

Creep

2008-07-21T23:09:00.005+08:00

Today I came across this song call Creep by RadioHeads. I dunno abt the background of the band, but this song really very emotional and gives me creep. Here's the lyrics:

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
And I wish I was special
You're so f***kin' special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.
I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so f***kin' special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.
She's running out again,
She's running out
She's run run run running out...
Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so f***kin' special
I wish I was special...
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo,
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.
I don't belong here.

It really build up my emotions slowly and later part in the chorus it juz bust out. Giving me the sadness and just like a monster in this world loving a girl, u could really feel how the monster had felt.
And for extra infos, the UK government banned this song in the 90s as it was really too emotional and it drives some ppl with really low self-esteem to death, giving UK high rates of commit suicidal for deaths in that yr.

You can try listening to 林宥嘉 version. He somewhat sang out the expression too.
Here's the link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fIdLOUCFcYM

enjoy I suppose...

Quiet Thoughts

2008-07-19T03:28:00.003+08:00

As the sun falls even deeper into the seas,
I couldn't laid back comfortably like the rabbits in the cage.
I wonder why,
Was it my body?
Was it my bed?
Was it my pillow?
Was it my bloster?
Was it my blanket?
Was it my mind?
And the answer afloats out to my vision.
What I saw was nothing but
That familiar shadows
And the soft silky coffeed-hair
Blowing across the cheeks
I knew it
I told myself
I knew it
I was serious
Maybe not so
But yeah
If my courage allows me
I would strive for even another mile
The mile yet, seems so long
Will I never reach to
The rosey cheeks
The sweet-ish lips
The beautiful eyes
And the personality that I could never wished better for

Wonder what would Jesus say about this
Would He agree with me?
Or would He stop me?
This moment
I realise
I took Christ into consideration for everything in my life
I was surprised
Have I finally grown up?
I prayed
Yes?
No?
Maybe?
Where's the answer?
.......

I'll choose maybe
Cos' I aint wanna be sure that I've got it
But I dun wanna keep my hopes dashed
Maybe sounds good
But there's never maybe in this world

Eyes finally dropping to my chin
My body is magnetised by the bed
But in my mind
Maybe
Maybe She's the one

DreamLand

2008-07-17T11:40:00.003+08:00

What's a dream, I wonder..

I had yet another weirdest dream again last night.
It seems people around me turn out to be unexpected as I thought.
They have intergrated to another better man,
While I'm still stucked with my sin.
They got their special gift from God
They are having their best amazing moments in their life
And they deserved it
Because they are the one who didn't give up on pursueing God' teachings
Those who didn't intergrate
Obviously they are too into this world
althoug their life still aint that bad
but they are not enjoying as much surprises as those who integrated
Me?
Don't ask about me.
I didn't dream much about myself
Except I was just one of the witnesses to see the changes in their life
I doubt I changed much
But the dream really turn out not my way

Then I had a second dream.
I dreamt I was debarred for DEL.
Shucks.
I really felt very remorseful about it
And after the teacher showed the debarrement list,
She ended with a prayer
I was like "Wow"
I kept bugging her
To keep me out of the list
As I really can't take anymore troubles
Although it was I who started it
Sigh..

I really feel kinda lost today
All the happenings
All the dreams
Yes they may just be dreams
But
日有所思，夜有所梦
And sometimes
God warn us about ourselves
Through dream
I gonna go read the bible
And hear what He wanna say to me

Til Then,

P.S Wow wow wow. I'm stll kinda taken back by my first dream. Really. Alot of things turned out unexpectedly. Esp in church. People changes and their spouse in their life, Wow wow wow.

burdens are not carried alone

2008-07-13T23:09:00.005+08:00

Today is quite an impacting day for me. Witnessing the very true and real Jesus presence in my fellowship. A majority of us went to a brother's grandma wake after church service. When we reached, I could tell that he's already very weary. So we sat down and he started to spill out his sorrows. Really, listening to his sharing makes everyone starts to think abt their loved ones too. Although he witnessed the entire process how his grandma left him and his family, frustrations and tears are emotions that could only be expressed by him. I kinda understand how he felt cos I went thru it befor too, although I didn't had the chance to see my grandpa one last time before he passd away. All the brothers and sisters in Christ shared the burden with him and cried with him. I myself really felt very emotional. We prayed and sang songs for him, encouraging him to pick up himself again. And we all also learn a lesson that God doesn't wait for us to spread Gospel to other non-christians, esp the loved ones. We should realy, have the urgency to lead them to salvations. I also believed this help that brother in Christ to learn and grow. I begin to feel that this fellowship, 1723, is really the Christ-like and Christ-centred fellowship. Everyone was caring for one another, unconditional loves. I really hope those who dun come fellowship often and those younger ones, they really treasure this kind of relationship that God has given us. I believe and agree, being in this fellowship, you can grow and mature into a Christ-Like testimonial for God.

Later at night I talked to some of the younger ones. They were moaning about their problems too and thank God for the listening ears I had. Life isn't just about studies. Really, it is way much more than that. I hoped they were encouraged by the words of God and continue to rely on Him for everything.

I guessed I had to pick myself up. No use being stagnant and it would only cause myself to deprieve of my life even more. 愿上帝看顾这世界, 因这是天父的世界.

why

2008-07-13T00:20:00.000+08:00

Why
Really.
Why

Is it it?

Thursday

2008-07-10T18:25:00.003+08:00

My mind seems to settle down alot these few days. It's good as I do not need to think so much about it again. Schools have been ok for me and every assignments are done on time. Nothing could be better than that.

Today is thursday, I was late for school again but recovered well from my mistake and have every reason to be pleased with my performance today. Lol. I chatted with my Sec 1 cousin on msn and she told me she have so much projects to rush. Ironic huh? She's already taking Bio, Physics and Chemistry at this level, way too much than my times. Things have definitely changed alot. The MOE apparently wants all students to excel in their studies, but this is really ridiculous. Sigh, poor them, poor me.

Played Basketball just now, the ball's really horrible. I couldn't get the touch and feeling that I had and missed almost half of what I attempted. Damned. Oh well. After that went to library and cool down and here I am updating my blog.

I'm so nervous and shanky now. Going to LM soon right after finishing this post. The location has changed and I believe, so are things there. Sharon's gon, Ron off to further study, Dillon came to served, Seth a servant team member etc. 360 degree change? Nah, 90 degree maybe. I wonder what's for today. And I hope Daniel Liu is there. So much to says but nothings in my head. Blank.

Tml got singing competition audition organised by the BE students(whats that?). My friend-aka-Church Fellowship senior is going to join. He is attracted by the prizes. LOL. Ok, He just wanna have fun and he wanna pulled me along. I still thinking whether shld go. Sigh. Let's Pray.

Ok I got to go. Stomache. No one taking care of my belongings so gotta packed up my things. LM. Oh yeah and Oh No.

Til then,

H~E~L~P

2008-07-07T10:15:00.003+08:00

Seriously, the feeling is getting over me. I just can't seems to shake it off. I tried, but things around me keep pulling it back. Some people really didn' know how much they have done to cause that feeling fading back. Their ignorance and silly action really urges me to leave them. And there's this slut I refer as A that I know. A's really a double face. This moment A is happy, A go and sticked closely to them. Next moment A not happy, A shoved them off. And A tends to judge people by their cover.

Dots.

Okay, leave me alone. Really. And you are a christian? Why are you acting this way in school? Can you tell God why? People around me are declining their impression on us Christians. And when they looked at you, they looked at me. Can you wake up? Stop it. Argh. Partially my bad that they had such impression. I am not living a good testimony for Him in school. Everyone seems to be turned off by us. GAH! God! Help us!

I'm really trying very hard to live the life You liked. But things around me keep turning me off. Seriously, what should I do?

Christian Life ain't easy to walk, but its meaningful. Thats why I will keep on walking. But God, can you tell me what I can do to clear this mess?

Good changes are happening at my spiritual end. I'm starting to consistently do QT and read the Bible. I began to understand more and more about You. That's great. I thank you for everything you give me.

I really need Your guidance and wisdom to continue running in this school.

Til then,

四人游

2008-07-07T00:37:00.002+08:00

你的长发为何不留　
你干么会学懂喝酒
你那个男朋友　
酒量也算一流　
聊个一整夜只怕不够

原来一回头　
原来才显出你温柔　
我当时爱得不够
原来只能够做朋友　
从前快乐没变哀愁
原来在那关头　
全因舍得分手　
你说是否荒谬　
我们比从前看起来更熟

那天澎一声关门　
就走很想问　
你有没有眼泪想流
你以为　
你的魅力大得足够　
少有我们像在迎新怀旧

原来一回头　
原来才显出你温柔　
我当时爱得不够
原来只能够做朋友　
从前快乐没变哀愁
原来在那关头　
全因舍得分手
还去不去欧洲　
四个人不许酸溜溜

Disappointing(really)

2008-07-07T00:09:00.004+08:00

Recently, I really feel very disappointed about part of my life(not my blog name), mainly because of myself. I just can't seems to integrate to a better self and lead a testimony for God. I really feel that the feeling is coming back again, invading my shell-less mind, keep forcing me to pour out the dark and dimming memories in the past. I tried to resist but it has already taken over me unconsciously. Time will heal, doesn't it? But I don't think so. The shady emotions are covering me and my life. I felt, scared? Nope. frightened? Nope. Hopeless. Near. What I need now is sometimes alone. But the surroundings keep poking me to be extrovation(whatever you call it).

But I know I can't lie to myself. It is just that I'm so unhappy with everythings for the past few years, that I chose to immune it and be normal. NO! NO! NO! I tried to be enthusiastic to ALL THE THINGS around me in order to keep myself satisfied. But I was wrong, I was still that me. THAT ME.

ARGH! How I wished I could detest everything around me. SHOO! **** OFF! DUN POKE ME!(I'm serious)

Sigh...

When I thought everything was over, I saw a familiar dimmed light shining towards me. The sense of belonging, the sin-free feeling that once again relieve myself from this hopeless society. I began to flip pages and pages of wisdom, love and warmth. I just realised, being a Christian isn't easy in my life. I am still stuck at the downing stage but the ladder is always there waiting for me.

Although things are still what they are, but I know He has gave me more than sufficient to keep me running in this world.

I really loved music alot. I gonna strive for Him! I don't care what other says! I don't want other people to poke in to! I don't want you all! SHOO! All the silly thinkings be gone!

God is good, Halelujah! God is good.

You all are BAD!!!!
BAD!
BAD!
Okay lar, maybe not bad, but oh well.

Felt so much better now.
But still feel a little disappointed in me.

Enjoyable Holidays

2008-06-20T23:38:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone its been awhile since I updated my blog.

I just return from Taiwan-cum-hong kong 3 days ago. It was really very fun and I met alot of new friends along the tour. It was some new exp I had this time in Taiwan as I've neve been to other parts of Taiwan before. I saw the 原族民 dance and their culture. It was something interesting and Thank God that 99.9% of them are Christians!! Halelujah!! It was total of 6 days in Taiwan and 2 days in Hong Kong.

Well Hong Kong still ok lar except that the hotel room is ridiculously small for 3 and it kept raining. But God look after the weather when we went to HK DisneyLand. Everything was bless by Him =D Den on the last day when going back to Singapore I actually saw my sec 3 sec 4 chinese teacher 陈老师!!! LOL!! Wat a coincidence!! She was also returing back to Singapore with her friends. Haha. The world is really small.

I must really thank God alot for this blessing to go travelling with my parents as such chances are hard to come by. Amen!

P.S. well there's still tons of works to do before school reopen... Gotta rush it!!

Unhappy things on a Happy Day

2008-05-25T22:32:00.003+08:00

Today suppose to be a great day, a fine and fun day, but yet here I am feeling low updating my blog.

Thank God now I have already cooled down after a 2hr sleep ever since I returned home. If not I would be cursing and swearing at my parents for my angry-ness.

Seriously today I felt a total disappointment in my parents, I am really really so pissed that I couldn't think carefully anymore. They have really "crossed-the-line" even though there shldn't be any lines. Damn it! I really fucking hate the situation I'm in. Why they so like that de? Fuck it lar. !@#$%^&*!@#$%^!@#$%!@#$

But that's that. I think it's an oppurtunity to be independent and rely on Him rather than sitting around complaining like a baby. Sigh, why I so like that.

One of my friend smsed me a bad news today while I'm in service. Her beloved uncle had passed away this morning. Things have been rocky for her recently and the least I could do is continue to pray for her. I believe her family will get over with it and trust in God that He has His plan. Well the thing I did when she sms, I reply to her with my condolences. I guessed what she really need now is friends and family around her to bring her through.

Then I remembered a song. A children song. A song that would perhaps encourage her to continue going forward.

He's ABLE, He's ABLE
I know He's ABLE
I know my Lord is ABLE to bring me through
He's ABLE, He's ABLE
I know He's ABLE
I know my Lord is ABLE to bring me through
He heals the broken hearted,
and set the captives free
He let the lame to walk again
and let the blind to see (OH YEAH!!!!!)
He's ABLE, He's ABLE
I know He's ABLE
I know my Lord is ABLE to bring me through =D

So cheers my dear sister-in-Christ, I hope I have made you smile with me singing this song(erm you imagine lar that I singing it to you =P)

Til then,
Titus

P.S sorry for my vulgarities but real man express his emotions clearly to the others.
And I felt so much better after blogging.

Tuesday in between blue and green

2008-05-06T13:36:00.003+08:00

Sian leh, after monday blue it is some stupid tuesday. Apparently my study mood for the week hasn't settled down yet. Have skept alot of classes for the past 3 weeks, I hope I wldnt skipped anymore class. Sian today got practical after biophysics, and I am alone!!! >.< Man sian sian SIAN!

Yesterday I talked with Rebekah abt the problems again. It was great sharing with her as if all my burdens were gone. Like how she implement it with God to solve the problems. I concluded; space and time are the answer.

For the first time since last yr october, I managed to blog at least 5 consecutive times this Month of May!! Maybe I finally found the use of my blog; to relieve my stress and share anything nice.

Well til then

P.S 3 days til weekend!! =D But 5 days til next monday lor. =(
And my head still hurt once in a while.

Monday Blue

2008-05-06T00:50:00.002+08:00

Sian man~ Today yet another start of the week... Morning FOOP I cldn't absorb at all lar. Then it was MI Prac. GAH! It is so crazy! Expect us to finish 6hrs work in 2hrs time -___- And maths I nearly fell asleep, was so tired.

Today for CF my preacher from my church fellowship came to gave a talk abt "基督精兵". It was enriching although I heard it the second time. Guess everyone enjoyed it.

Gah! So many things went wrong today. First we forgot to inform the rest of the CFers abt today gathering, then 干事 was quite pissed with us =( Den we forgot abt the speaker's gift, which 干事 shake head. Haiz, we too task-oriented and hence many things which aren't initiated is left blank. Den when the moments come we juz looked at each other with puzzled face. GAH! Can't stand it! hehz, hope things turn out better next monday lor...

Finally a new week with a new starts, hope all the cloudiness would pass by and NOT affect me anymore. Rebekah was right, maybe time and space was the answer. I was also tired from this madness. From the start til the end. Mnths and days passed. Finally. Maybe I was too self-centred, but GAH! if the person dun even grow up and continue the sturborness and the split, forget it. IF it is how is done, so be it.

But I'll still keep praying. Just like how Jehovah love the Israelis and continue to shower them with grace. Sigh, need more patience and tolerance.

Finally the online tutorial not done in time, shyt. Oh well, time to pick up the revision again.

And so monday blue ended with a dilenma.

Every Moments Thank God

2008-05-04T23:13:00.003+08:00

A few months ago I was packing my room, and I coincidently found a piece of encouragement poster given by the Sisters from my fellowship. I thought it was a good reminder and decided to share it with you all. Here's what it says:

If God brings you TO it, He will bring you THROUGHT it.

Happy Moments, Praise God.
Difficult Moments, Seek God.
Quiet Moments, Worship God.
Painful Moments, Trust God.
Every Moments, THANK GOD!! =D

hot weather

2008-05-03T13:05:00.002+08:00

Wah Piang! Very hot lar! Go where also sweat. DUI! Hate the sun mann! Love the rain more =) GAH! The weather's really causing me to go NUTS! ARGH!

Hehz drink more water everyone, lot's my friends had cracked lips or heaty gum in their mouth. The World Ends Without Water. LOL

P.S Got a new game from Nintendo DS : The World Ends With You... Pretty cool huh, produced by Square Enix, the producer of Final Fantasy Series. I'll give this game a 9/10 =D

Some stupid week

2008-05-01T14:37:00.002+08:00

Hehz this week had been the most empty and unfruitful week ever. Lots of things in my life went wrong. Gosh. I also can't believe what happened. Man, late for class, falling out with friends, scolding a girl over for another girl for nothing, spouting rubbish to another. Crap, I suck man. Grrr, and worse of all, din do any QT at all lar! Then I got misunderstood for consoling my friend. Haiz... Feel like a jerk. Damn! What has gotten into me. It seems there are so much burdens and problems around me that can't be resolved. God! God! God! Are You There!??
Nothing's perfect in this world.

And I think I owed Aileen an apology. Sorry for giving you stupid attitude over such stupid stuffs that day. I was out of my mind doing that.

And Zhao Min's grandma take care. Hope you recuperate quick quick!

P.S and the week passed without a notice... AND THE PHOENIX SUNS GOT KNOCK OUT BY SPURS AGAIN! GRRR! HATE THE SPURS

Somewhere over the rainbow

2008-04-27T22:08:00.001+08:00

Recently I loved this song alot. It really caught my attention when David Tao sang it during his concert in 2003. Man! Isn't it mesmerising? Enjoy =D

Somewhere over the rainbow

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true

Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?
Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?

陶喆 “一二三我们都是木头人” 演唱会

2008-04-20T00:30:00.007+08:00

Oh Yeah!! Today me and my mum we went to 陶喆 “一二三我们都是木头人” concert. Seriously his singing is superb. Even though it is live, but he is just too great. Really.

Here's the songs he sang today at the concert : (some not in order)

1) Intro - Free
2) 忘不了
3) 天天
4) 讨厌红楼梦
5) 飞机场的10:30 (My Fav!!)
6) 月亮代表谁的心
7) 鬼
8) 你爱我还是他
9) Susan 说
10) 小镇姑娘
11) 我喜欢
12) 普通朋友
13) 今天没回家
14) Dear God
15) Melody
16) 黑色柳丁
17) 寂寞季节
18) Runaway
19) 今天你要嫁给我
20) 就是爱你
21) 王八蛋
22) 太美丽
23) Dance Medley - Addicted to Love, KungFu Fighting, September's Love, I feel good
24) 沙滩
25) 爱很简单

yeah guess thats all. The concert was cool man. We reached at 7.30pm. The tix say 8pm starts but we wait and wait til 8.30 den start. I was kinda bored during the waiting time. Oh we saw this 喆选 fan club doing some encouraging video clip to David Tao before the concert. They were like saying "加油老大喆玄挺你!" into the video. It is interesting as I first time see such things happen. I'm starting to feel the heat of the concert. Den after checking in, I bought this David Tao concert shirt and got one poster free (The shirt kinda sucks, but oh well... The poster matters XD).

The entire show was enjoyable. Even though I cldnt really see David's face from my view, his vocals are already the reason why we come for the concert. Awww quite sad cos can't see him in person. =(

He made alot of new and fresh music arrangement to most songs and the sound perfect! Like the 月亮代表谁的心, for once he made sound so soul and gospel. Woot~ He is really talented.

Near the end, David picked this girl from the centre area to come to stage. He chose singaporean girls not China nor Hong Kong girls (the fans from oversea)as he wld wanna be fair to Singapore. Gosh! He didnt even think about choosing boys although he joked it wld ruin his image if he were to pick the same gender. This girl call shuying is damn lucky lar! She got all the attention she desire from David Tao and even eat his tofu! ROFL! I think many fans must be mad at her for doing that. So david juz sang 沙滩 to her and walked around the stage and juz send her off after that. Thought something interesting wld happen.

As usual, he ended with 爱很简单 as the classic. He also shared his testimony for God, which really touches my heart. Wat is it about? Ask me in person. Lazy type =P
Then after the concert ended, I strand around the place to see if i can get to see him and have him autograph my albums and poster. But the harvest was fruitless. Haiz. So juz went home lor.

Overall I enjoyed alot and really thank God that He worked miracles and graces in David Tao's life. I really can see how much David Tao has shined for God. Today fellowship was talking abt the Potter and the Clay. The Potter is God while the clay is David Tao. Haha no need say much u see how David Tao has performed and successful he is. The morale is How great Our God is. Halelujah Praise the Lord! =D

The 喆玄 fans club

陶喆 “一二三我们都是木头人” 演唱会

Kinda empty at first, but....

Become full le!

The shirt tag

The crowd standing to their feet.

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That lucky girl.

Starting of Year 2

2008-04-15T21:36:00.002+08:00

Yeah! Finally School starts. Many things have happened during the holidaes. Like CF FOCamps and many outings. But wat makes me feel excited is the new starts.

Got into alot of diff class due to fact that i failed a module, so my schedules are all mixed up. But it is okay Titus. Juz jiayou.

Den today marked the finish of CCA Fiesta. Was freaky tiring. Stoning there the whole day(hehe i kinda slacked). But am glad we did our best and leave it all to God to bring the people who read the flyers to Welcome Tea.

It gonna be at 21st April 2008 at CF Room 73-03-03 at 6pm. Programmes gonna be fun! =D

Cya all freshies.

Titus.

P.s Sorry wor for not updating blog.. Too unbothered to update it =P

Away for 3 days

2008-03-24T00:10:00.001+08:00

Yeah peeps, I will be away for 3 days 2 nights. It is CF Freshmen Orientation Camp tml, so excited but YET some jobs aren't done. although ppl come quite little, but is ok lar! ok tata~

Cheer Up already

2008-03-16T00:16:00.003+08:00

Today was kinda great day, at least for I've forgotten the horrible facts and etc.

I shared my troubles with some brothers from 1723 during fellowship time. Really spoke out the frustrations in my heart and thanks Yang Jun for the consoling prayers. You were right here when I needed someone to comfort. And also thank other brothers who listened to my agonies and gave me precious advices, really picked me up from where I fall.

I walked out from the main lobby of my church, and looked at the skies. I said, "我真幸运有团契的弟兄为我分享重担." and really confirmed me that fellowship is important, especially during this time.

I was really touched, and thank you everyone who tried to cheer me up. You've all done it =)

Maybe after all, it wld be better this way...

And tml we are going to visit Jia Han's Grandma wake. Many bad things happen this week, at least from wat I knew ard me.

上帝，你是万能者
You are really able to do anything.

Sadness, scaredness

2008-03-14T21:08:00.003+08:00

Today is the result of my previous semester modules examination...
Apparently from the title, u cld have guess it...
Ya It is bad..
And I am not sad about that..
What I am sad is that I actually failed a module...
Meaning I have to retake it..
....I've never failed b4 in my life...
But today is really a shocking moment for me..
I really.. really.. felt sad..
Never been so sad since I got fooled last Valentine..

Tears are beyond my expression..
Whats left are my agonies and pains..
I know I deserved it, but somehow I cldn't face it..

And I realise, I am really tiny..
God can make a person succeed, but He can too make a person fall..
He loves us so much...
That if we are getting out of control..
He will take in-charge and makes changes..
And when it does, things will be horrible and painful for you..

And today is the day, that the Lord has made..
An unforgetable day...
He gave me a jolly well wake-up SLAP in my heart..
I thanked Him,
But I really felt depressed..

Who? Who can feel my pains, and share my troubles? .................

P.S My condolences to Jia Han's Grandma, Rest in peace.

情人节快乐!!

2008-02-13T14:45:00.004+08:00

Hi everyone. Wishes everyone a HAPPY VALENTINE!! 情人节快乐!! Here's a song dedicated to all couples out there. Hope you all enjoy :) Sighz.. Another lonely valentine day for me :P

情人节快乐

演唱:曹格
专辑:格格Blue
作词:小色作曲:曹格

关上床边电视机
终於能关掉世界的声音
我说好吗晚点回去
多麽地不可思议
当我们眼神交集
混杂着前所未有的心悸
如果可以我要拥抱你
爱情太短促天亮就结束
幸福太清楚但我握不住
不要哭
醒来还得面对这残酷
收下这礼物多少人羡慕
骄傲地宣布今晚不孤独
来跳舞
跳我们的舞

Tonight我们都忘了回家的路
为你献上我
最完美的一整套服务
不如这样快把帘子拉起来
假装睡太晚慢点再离开
不管怎样要你记住这一晚
我为你存在 Happy Valebtine

把爱收进隔夜的行李
请小心不要破坏这记忆
戴上面具名自离去
有一些话说出来就成了谜
我们都应该要懂这规矩
再见爱情再见到你

十大歌曲排行榜

2008-02-10T22:20:00.000+08:00

Hey everyone, i shall post on my 10 most favourite CHINESE songs in my life! Just enjoy reading and hope some of the songs are also your favourite CHINESE songs. Oh if u wanna rate the song just comment to this post or tag my board. I will put your rating on the post! =) It is an honour(HAH).

十大歌曲排行榜: 第十名

活出真正的你

原唱: 有情天音乐
作词: 不详
作曲: 不详
收入专辑: 活出真正的你(2005年)

评分: - (诗歌不是拿来评分的)

我不常听诗歌或基督化的歌曲，可是《活出真正的你》真是让我一听了又再听. 比较现代化的一首诗歌，耶稣基督的爱还是能表达出来，赞美“他”. 这时才让我明白无论是怎样的诗歌，只要你还能敬拜上帝，才是最重要的.

十大歌曲排行榜: 第九名

欧若拉(Aurora)

原唱: 张韶涵
作词: 施立
作曲: 李天龙
收入专辑: 欧若拉(2004年)

评分: 7/10

《欧若拉》这首歌的风格比较特别，采取用北极女神的名字，来做为题材. 神秘的背景，搭上顺畅的旋律，《欧若拉》是张韶涵个人第二张专辑里的主打歌. 听了第一次的我，马上就喜欢这首歌. 在我个人的十大歌曲排行榜第九名这位子，欧若拉决对直得.

十大歌曲排行榜: 第八名

幸福的地图

原唱: 萧亚轩
作词: 姚谦
作曲: 陈伟
收入专辑: 第五大道(2004年)/《千金百分百》原声带(2004年)

评分: 7/10

萧亚轩的《幸福的地图》，应该是我有史以来听过最好听的快歌吧. 完美的八拍节奏加上萧亚轩独特的嗓子，这首歌真是令我喜欢. 我并不是很爱听快歌，唯萧亚轩的列外. 虽说Elva现在的水准已退步，但《幸福的地图》永远都是她其中代表作品之一. GOGOGO!

十大歌曲排行榜: 第七名

圣诞结

原唱: 陈奕迅
作词: 李麥
作曲: 何启么
收入专辑: 七(2003年)

评分: 7.5/10

孤单的圣诞节，如果听了这首歌，包你流眼泪. 陈奕迅的《圣诞结》是我在一个平凡声音找到感动点. 没有人能如此美化一首简单的歌. 也让我刮目相看，陈奕迅是个好歌手. 悲伤的伴奏，加上孤孤的歌声，haiz，连杨竣都会emo.

十大歌曲排行榜: 第六名

你要的爱

原唱: 戴佩妮
作词: 戴佩妮
作曲: 戴佩妮
收入专辑: 怎样(2001年)

评分: 7.5/10

也许是我第一次听到喜欢的华文歌，还记得那时流星花园播出时，《你要的爱》是我每日都会哼的歌. 稍为悲哀的感觉，加上吉他的伴奏，这首歌不仅在孤独的夜晚让人听了都非常感动. 我也因为为了得到这首歌，还特地去买戴佩妮的So Penny(新歌+精选). 《你要的爱》，真是流星花园的代表作.

十大歌曲排行榜: 第五名

给我你的爱

原唱: TANK
作词: 颜玺轩
作曲: TANK
编曲: 吕绍淳
收入专辑: Fighting!生存之道(2006年)/《终极一班》原声带(2006年)

评分: 7.5/10

TANK最自豪的创作，《给我你的爱》可是2006年十大最受欢迎的歌. 虽TANK的歌声比不过曹格，王力宏或张惠妹，但他的歌已迷倒许多粉丝. 也许这首歌是很多人喜爱的歌，卡拉OK必点唱，这样的成绩，已经够好了. 我本身也喜欢唱这首歌.

十大歌曲排行榜: 第四名

情人节快乐

原唱: 曹格
作词: 小色
作曲: 曹格
收入专辑: 格格Blue(2006年)

评分: 7/10

非常有感动度的歌，曹格的歌声，在这里表达出他的爱. 令我感动的是，你会不仅想起你喜欢的人，便向与她一起庆祝情人节快乐. Woo~Woo~Woo~ 厚实感性的声音，让人听了都毛站. 不话二说，曹格是歌坛里最优秀之一的歌手. 情人节快乐! =D

十大歌曲排行榜: 第三名

Forever Love

原唱: 王力宏
作词: 王力宏/十方/何啟宏/于景雯
作曲: 王力宏
收入专辑: 心中的日月(2004年)

评分: 9/10

Forever Love~ Forever Love~ 我只想用我這一輩子去愛你~ 不错，如果你对你心爱的女孩子唱这首歌，我相信她也会原意用她這一輩子去愛你. 在《十大歌曲排行榜: 第三名》这位子，可会做得稳稳. 看了Forever Love的MV，让我也想在婚礼上弹钢琴自唱. =D 從今以後~ 你會是所有~ 幸福的理由~~~~~

十大歌曲排行榜: 第二名

天使忌妒的生活

原唱: 曹格
作词: 邬裕康
作曲: 曹格
编曲：涂惠源
收入专辑: Superman(2006年尾)

评分: 8.5/10

《天使忌妒的生活》大概是我最喜欢的曹格的歌吧. 歌的旋律非常非常的捧，R&B的feel真的是让我赞不绝口，也是《Superman》专辑里的卖点. 曹格这首歌，让他入围金曲奖:最佳男歌手这项目，虽没赢，可是已是我许多认识的朋友一听就说好的歌. 《天使忌妒的生活》，赞!

and finally.....

十大歌曲排行榜: 第一名

飛機場的10:30

原唱: 陶喆
作词: 陶喆
作曲: 陶喆
收入专辑: 陶喆同名专辑(1997年)

评分: 9.99/10(不给满分是怕说偏心)

如果你是我中学的朋友的话，我最喜欢的歌你一定猜得到，没错! 就是《飛機場的10:30》!! 陶喆的专辑《乐之路》是我有生以来买的第一张专辑. 虽到了15岁才开始喜欢《飛機場的10:30》这首歌，可是如果没听过这首歌，我也不会喜爱R&B. 《飛機場的10:30》里歌词有一段“人总是傻到失去才会珍惜”，是我喜欢的一段话，表达了人的本性. 也是在我失去公公时那一刹呐的话. 《飛機場的10:30》是在华语歌坛界里，最原始，最纯的R&B(Rhythmn and Blue)，也在歌手们当中欣起转音的朝流. 《飛機場的10:30》应该是我这一辈子不会听腻的歌. Yeah! DAVID TAO and R&B rocks!

2008 新年蒙恩

2008-02-10T22:10:00.000+08:00

嗨！

在这里向大家拜年

祝你新年蒙恩
福杯满溢
身体健康
步步高升
心想事成
女的就年年十八，永远青春美丽！
男的就年年体壮，永远又帅又好看！

最后愿耶和华赐福给大家！
哈利路亚！

徐伟骥贺

Big Family!

2008-01-18T12:35:00.000+08:00

我们成为一家人，
因着耶稣，因着耶稣，
成为神儿女。
我们成为一家人，
因着耶稣，因着耶稣，
成为神国的子民。

因着耶稣得洁净，
因着耶稣入光明，
因着耶稣同享复活的生命。
同享生命的喜悦，
同在主爱中连结
因着耶稣同受丰盛的产业。

我们成为一家人，
因着耶稣，因着耶稣，
成为神儿女。
我们成为一家人，
因着耶稣，因着耶稣，
成为神国的子民。

因着耶稣同敬拜，
因着耶稣蒙慈爱，
因着耶稣彼此恩慈来相待。
或在喜乐中欢唱，
或遇苦难同哀伤，
因着耶稣同渡人生的风浪。

A song which reminds me when I was chatting with Michele online today. She was saying about tracts left on the table(something like that) for a day, and next day it was gone! I told her everyone yearn for God in their heart, it is just whether is it the one and only God, or other Idols to just fill the emptiness in their heart.

The comparison was made that:

A lost sheep is finding its sheperd.
And the sheperd send us, who are the sheeps
to find the lost sheep and help him find the way back to home.
We are like a herd of sheeps together, like a big family.
And the sheperd, who make us stay together, is Jesus!

Thats why we are a one big family, no matter where we are, what we do.
Now I know why Campus Crusade, Christian Fellowship and Navigators are set up in school! =D

Because of Him,
Which made me,
Titus

2008 Combined Polys CF FOC

2008-01-16T22:05:00.000+08:00

Everyone! 大家好! This year combined polys Christian Fellowship(Chinese) Freshmen Orientation Camp is out!! The date is from 24th to 26th March! I highly encouraged ye to come! It is gonna be fun! Well the rest I shalln't say much. Shld come the camp and see for yourself!! =D

He's Able!!

2008-01-16T16:30:00.001+08:00

He's Able! He's Able!
I know He's Able!
I know my Lord is able to bring me through...
He's Able! He's Able!
I know He's Able!
I know my Lord is able to bring me through...
He heals the broken hearted
And set the captives free
He made the lame to walk again
and cause the blind to see OH YEAH!
He's Able! He's Able!
I know He's Able!
I know my Lord is able to bring me through...

Yeah that's right! He's Able! He brought me through so much and he always console me when I am down. Like recently I really dun have any motivation to study and on the verge of giving up, everything seems to be falling apart, I remembered Him! It is an unspoken warm in my heart when I prayed and asked Him to lead me through my tests and exams. The test is easy but I think without Him it wld be Hard. Again I felt his presence with me and gave me the most comfortable feeling. He is here! Always here! And I know even though I have problem studying and doing the tests, but wat cld be bigger than the One who had authority over everything!!!! He's Able! He's Able! I know He's Able! I know my Lord is able to bring me through :) Praise the Lord!!

And now the chinese version for He's Able :

主能够，主能够，
我知主能够，我知主能够带领我走过一切
主能够，主能够，
我知主能够，我知主能够带领我走过一切
他医治破碎心灵，使被奴得自由
他使瞎眼睛能看见，让却瘸子能行走 OH YEAH!!!
主能够，主能够，
我知主能够，我知主能够带领我走过一切 =D

For His Glory,
Titus

Fresh New Year, Old School Life

2008-01-10T22:10:00.000+08:00

Hey everyone! Happy Belated New Year!!

Heh, school really "GREAT" in a sense that assignments come rush to u like mad. Gosh and the worst part is u got no mood to do it. But overall I am still ok with it.

Eh I dunno how I made this decision, but for the rest of the entire term, I wldn't be going to Crusade LM anymore, basically I needa catch up with my studies, realise it is very far behind, and I am selected to be in Upcoming Christian Fellowship(chinese) Combine Poly Freshmen Orientation Camp(FOC) chairman!! Wew~ So the preparation process is kinda tedious and I definitely need more time to do it(planning, assigning meeting etc.). Of course I will miss Crusade (like who dun), but I guess I gotta "forsake" it for a while. Miss ya!! Will keep you all in prayers.

And so in my 1723 fellowship in church, there came a new batch of freshies. Still ok ok with them but wld love to see them grow in the fellowship with others :) Ahhh how time flies, I was only a freshies last yr but now a senior. Gotta be good my conduct and try to be a good example for them.

Oh btw, IF U ARE A FRESHIES GOING TO POLY THIS YR OR ANY OTHER YR 1 OR 2 OR 3 POLY STUDENTS, I WLD LIKE TO INVITE U TO JOIN THE UPCOMING FRESHMEN ORIENTATION CAMP =)
IT WLD BE ARD END OF MARCH.

Well, til then.
Titus

2007-12-13T20:46:00.000+08:00

Finally... 3 papers are finished and last one has yet to come. I am so relieved. Thank God for the past 24 hrs for giving me the energy and determination to revised finish the HUGE 8 chapters of Cell and Molecular Biology. I thought I would nvr pass memorise every stuffs and details. But heng the paper is kinda easy although I got a few forgot how to do. At least I am satisfied.

My wednesday paper was horrible.. Really horrible.. I dun even noe whether I can pass it. Guess my sloth have my paper killed. So I was determined to score better for the final 2 papers. And thank Him that my will power still there although I slacked off at the end. Oh Well.

Now left is that stupid BioPhysics paper. Zzz...
Ok continue to strive I shall. Heh.

Til Den.
Titus

Weeeezzz

2007-12-12T02:58:00.000+08:00

Wah This week is the common tests week. Oh Gosh I hate the timetable for my tests =X so pack! And the worst of all, I can't absorb wat I am studying. Really tired and depleted. Motivation level near 0... Only prayers are keeping me alife this very moments =0.

And then after my common tests is my kid's camp. There are huge problems on the registrations, and there is only like less than a week left til the camp is starting. Definitely need alot of prayer powers and ppl who are kind enuff, pls give us offering if u wish as we are very below budget.
Whooss.. Really stress I guessed.

Oh Well Part of Life.
Til then.

Titus

Ok finally...

2007-11-29T11:39:00.000+08:00

Phew sorry guys.. Finally blog updated!!!!
Wah can tell you all ah.. Really a busy December sia =X
Full of work in church which include camps, camps and carolings (woohoo~)
Zzzz As I type my head is like so painful lor =S

But I must say I really enjoy my work alot! Hah! It really feels comfortable as I serve the Almighty Lord. =) Must thank God for the chance for me to serve in areas I have never touch before.

1 thing I hate about poly is they have common test in December. ARGH! How CAN!? zzzz

December is my favourite month, and also my fav festive season!! because.. CHRISTMAS IS HERE!!!! JOY TO THE WORLD!! YEAH!! Carolings, present exchange, turkeys etc. wah I really feel very happy and joyful. Can't help it! =D
And most importantly, I am getting CONFIRMED THIS SUNDAY IN CHURCH!!! (something like baptism) WOohoo~ It is really gonna be an unforgetable memory for me, somemore my confirmation date is in DECEMBER!! YEAH!! Nothing could be better than that! In my favourite Season somemore!! =)

Yeah! Oh today I am leading worship in LM for the first time. Gosh I m kinda nervous :S But it is all for Him eh =) Jia You for today then! =)

Well til then =)

Agape!
Titus

Thou blog shall not die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-11-04T22:37:00.000+08:00

Ok I update liao!!!!!!! Dun say it is dead!! It is very demoralising!!!
Haha sorry peeps... Really moodless la...

Yesterday was fellowship time again, and I learn something really important and enlights my thinking. It is love. My preacher told us abt the meaning of true love. First of all, u need to have a target in ur life. If no target, den next time get married or become steady it may affect ur target in ur life, and the consequence is unbearable. Second, stay close to God, before u even have a steady relationship with ur partner, only thru being a "whole" in urself, would u be steady with her. And being whole means staying close to God. Ok I kinda start to repeat myself.. Finally, pray for that person, no matter wat the result is, pray.

And some interesting facts that makes me think thrice on getting married.
For a total calculation, 89K is the minimum needed for a perfect marriage procedure (bridal gown, photos, dinner etc.) and 250K is needed for a 4 room housing flat. GOSH!!! it wld take abt 7 yrs for the couple to get married if they starts to save every month for abt 600 per mnth. DIAO!! haha but I think most importantly still leave everything to God. He will provide the needs for the marriage =)

Marriage is a blessing by God, we should be grateful if we were to be given the grace. Yeah so finding a partner or girlfriend for me wld be a big consideration now, of cos i will still pray for her. Leave everything to HIM, i cant do anything.

Fresh O' Saturday

2007-10-27T23:55:00.000+08:00

Hey! I finally update my blog after so many days. Sorry la I no mood for pass few days.. Either sick, or study, or juz lazed around, the mood juz doesn't seems to be there..

Anyway, today is a great day! Many things were done and settled within 12 hrs. Firstly as usual saturdays, I go for my ministry for teaching kids, but finally back to the old place! We had been in another location for the teaching, but I still like the old place best! Air is the freshest, and so is the atmosphere.. Led a couple of games with the kids.. Gosh! They were super hyper today la like some siao kia(crazy kids), hard to control but i guess it's ok since we are back to the old place! And then I can finally starts on my execution for my ministry year-end 2 days camp! After pending for like nearly 2 months, we are free to starts our work! I came up with the entire programmes.. Man! U really can see the miracle creation of man by God! HAHA! The planning was superb and God really gave me grace to do so. BIG THANKS TO HIM!! =) Wat I need to do now is to appoint roles to each position for the camp committee.. Haha so fun! Just wat I really like to do! This is like dream come true for me!! All the years I cld only imagine and play in my own world! Sniff Sniff.. Really touched by God's grace and Amen! to all who believe in him for his power!! He really gave me a chance to show my potential =)

Then after that I attended my fellowship in church. Btw, my fellowship has a name and it is call 1723!! Cos the age grps range from 17 to 23. Haha simple but unique =)
Today was abt conversational evangelistic skills. Did learn a thing or 2 but not really confident yet.

Finally it was time for missionary trip training. Where am I going? Haha, in Malaysia for kids Evangelistic camp. It was simple and nice today as we really crap alot among one another today while cutting ingredients for artworks. Gosh, some ppl they are totally "artistic" if u noe wat I mean.. Everyone cant stop laughing. One of the sisters she actually tried to make a skirt for a sheep but eventually it end up like a sheep with its lower part being censored by the skirt. LOL! macham like some R rated stuffs for the sheeps to see. HAHA!

To end the saturday, here I am typing this post to blog due to popular demand by my friends =P Haha just kidding la~ I really hoped to have more of this kind of saturdays to come. I juz loved it! Ok gtg 11.54pm liao. Tml is another great day with fun programmes. Cya!

P.s Pray for my health and the camp planning when u see this brothers and sisters in Christ.. Agape!! =)

Moodless to blog

2007-10-20T23:49:00.000+08:00

Sorry everyone but really no mood la to blog this few days, although events in my life still happens daily. However I promise I wld blog at least next week ye? Haha Ok take care everyone =)

Agape!

It is thursday!

2007-10-18T22:48:00.001+08:00

Thursday is the day(Thursday is the day) That the Lord has made(That the Lord has made) I will rejoice(I will rejoice) Today got LM(Today got LM)

Haha yeap today is the 1st LM(LIFE Meeting) for the new semester. It was great as MANY MANY ppl turn up for the programe =) Though the programme was simple but interesting and fast! Haha.. Glad to see so many brothers and sisters in Christ in LM.. Like after 7 long weeks of holidays, we finally get together to catch up with each other.. Den after that we went to KAP mac to eat. OOOO I went ard poking ppl's burgers and Jean got mad at me... I really feel bad abt it.. HANNAH!! SEE!! Haha no la she didn't teach me anything, is I finger itchy go poke, but really regretted doing that... Maybe there's a time and chance to do everything at the right moment... But still feeling guilty and moodless now... ZZZ.. Yeap I apologized to Jean and she said it was fine, yet the guilt is there.. Haiyo...

Dinner was great as there were Sushi too! Daniel Liu and Marrilyn went to buy for dinner but apparently they cldn't finish so we help to save food =P Choo Min got sore eye, and yet she still come to school. Aiyo! Shld stay at home and rest. Will be praying for you~ Yeah quite a inconclusive ending but it is juz updates. Bye~ HW to catch =S

Agape!

P.s Really sorry Jean =( and Take Care Choo Min =)

Crossroad of my life

2007-10-17T22:22:00.000+08:00

Campus Crusade for Christ? or NP Christian Fellowship? Which one should I choose? My Gosh... Today I attended CF at 6pm as usual in school days. But the IC for CF actually said the date of CF is change to... THURSDAY!!! WAH!! Thats when CCC LM starts!! Oh my gosh! Ah!!! How How!!?? Sian Lor really... ~Pray Pray Pray~ For the moment I have decided to stick to Crusade as I already agree to serve there... As an Usher.. But I really wanan serve in Crusade. HOWEVER, CF oso lack of manpower in ministry. I thought I cld handle both as the dates do not clash. Lil' do I noe such thing wld happen one day... This is really a crossroad for me in NP. If I stick to Crusade, wat may happen? If I stick to CF, wat may happen? One thing I noe for sure, it is all for God ye? Amen!
Hmmmmm... So how So how? Crossroad with a Christ-centred path is right here right now infront of me.

P.s Today was really sneezy for me, stupid nose!

Truth about my obsession

2007-10-16T23:26:00.001+08:00

I am happy and scared at the same time while writting this post, cos today I realise something I had nvr really imagine.. The truth abt Pokemon! One of my brother in Christ shared with me abt the content in Bible.com that Pokemon are actually very harmful when u really get too addicted to it. It is oso the same for DOTA and other SuperNatural Games. When u get too addicted to it, it wld starts to affect ur behaviour and normal life, all the negatives wld be revealed. For me I think DOTA really eat up alot of my time and wasted my efforts in studies, but for pokemon i still cldnt find the reason cos I dun really fantasies abt catching pokemon bla bla bla in the reality though i used to do that when i was young. Seriously, I am gonna stop DOTAing for a period to kick away the habit of playing. For pokemon, it is really been awhile since I played it, so shld be fine but gotta deal with Pikachu. Haiz.... Really up and down and SCARED.. Fear wat the bad things it had brought upon me.. Prayers needed alot.. But my brother was right, do not fear as the Almighty one is far more powerful than the devils and demons. This really warms my heart. Yeap so anyone who viewed this post pls pray for me!!

P.s Really very tired today. Slept for 3 hrs only last night,

New Semester

2007-10-15T15:25:00.001+08:00

Bored. Was late for school again today. Reach at 8.20 when it was suppose to be 8.
Got into a new IS class and made a couple of new friends, but met my pri sch ex-classmate again. Tsk Tsk. Be prepared for the worst. Yup, today is pretty boring, nothing to do much. Feeling sleppy though. Last night was horrible, I cld hardly sleep as the mosquito keep bitting me. So Itchy! Yah freaking tired now, but will nvr stop shining for God.

Agape!

Campaign on saving the Emo's

2007-10-14T19:20:00.000+08:00

Yeap. Recently lots of my friends are and still emo-ing at one corner. Someone gotta pick them up and open up their lifes. And measures? Talk to them, cheer them up, buy them their favourite foods, asked them out to play, use a broomstick and chase them out of their house, throw $$ at them etc. so many ways. But doing it is like way harder than talking and suggesting about it. How can U help in this campaign? Easy, prayers, prayers, prayers and giving urself the oppoturnity to talk to others. Be it heart-to-heart or gossips, it is just part of the solution to strengthen the friendship and the problems. God is looking after everyone, so don't feel neglected nor discourage, for families and friends are always side-by-side with u to face ur life. Ok so cheer up to those emo-ing out there, i dun mean to offend anyone if the content struck u. Just it really hurts to see ur friends emo-ing at a corner and ignoring u. Yeah God loves Us as we should love others.

Agape!

Re: My 1st posting on Lunch Meeting

2007-10-12T21:56:00.000+08:00

OOPs I forgotten abt MeiLing =P She oso cldn't make it due to her work and her aunt gave her extra task to do.. Yeap she was missed but not forgotten too..
Agape!

My 1st posting on my lunch outing!

2007-10-12T21:22:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone this is pikachu lover again =P Thanks everyone for ur care and concern I am fine now. The Holy Spirit sort of let me realise abt my mistakes ya so I've learn my lesson I guess.

Anyway I went to Vivo City with Joshie, Jean, Seth(Yu Lu), Justin, Ariana and Daniel Liu today for a lunch gathering. We were like talking crap and nonsense abt one another while eating the BIG BIG burger from Carls JR.(with free flow of drinks.. if only they have free flow of fries too =X). And I can seriously tell you, the burger was so feeling that i cld juz skip my dinner la, but anyway i didn't =P. Choo Min was sick today so she cldn't make it. She was missed but never forgotten, we called her to "taunt" her and make her feel "better", but apparently she kept thinking that our voice was Joshie voice(eewww HAHAHA). Everything was cool and we continued our outing to some pet shops at the highest level. Oh My so cute lor the puppies!! If only my mum allow me to have one. Yeah we played with the puppies thru the glass window and ji siao them =P. And one of the puppy actually pee while drinking water! Classic! But too bad nvr take any pics... Ariana left us at this point cos her mum "force" her to go home for some reasons. Sad.

Later on we went arcade and some other miscellaneous stalls to see see look look. Nothing really interesting. We went to Toys'r'us(dunno how to spell sorry)and really did alot of lame things there lor. Siao! Me and Justin were like playing soccer in a small corner heading to each other(Fernado Torres he proclaimed), den we played Jedi knights and suddenly Joshie appeared with an Ernie puppet and starts to act cute. We were crazy and threaten to kill him and Ernie.
LOL look at Joshie's facial expression! Superb sia.. Haha den I also found this PIKACHU STUFF TOY at the sesames street toys section(dun ask me how and why). Yeah!!!! My FAV!!! +100000000 affection pt to anyone who buy me the PIKACHU(for a crazy price it is $85+).

HAha!! Den finally we played baseball and hoola hoop together. We oso ji siao Jeanette to wear the cute little skirt, but she didn't(spoiler!=P). And we saw this capsule machine juz at the entrance of the TOYS'R'US with a Pokemon label, so I decided to try my luck with a $1 coin, but haiz no pikachu but it was ok.HAHA Joshie looked even more upset then me! Oh it was a manaphy HP screen cleaner btw.

For last we walked to Harbour Front Centre and talk cock to one another juz outside the MRT station. Cld see that everyone wasn't willing to leave. Haiz~ Yah and so we parted our ways and I went back to JE to cut my hair. OH MY my fringe is like so short now la! At my eye lvl. ZZZZ Ok so to end with my outing today, I wanna say thank you to all my friends and God for giving us this chance together to chat and play and bond(YEAH!). Although Choo Min wasn't here, but it doesn't really impact our mood today la LOL. Jk Jk choo min~~ =P Really missed her and her PINK and green specs and her presence. Cya all ard soon! Pika Pika! =P

P.s Sch reopening in 3 days time... Sian!!!!

Why I always feel this way sometimes??

2007-10-12T00:04:00.000+08:00

I cant say much... But I really feel frustrated with my own feelings and reality that things have to go this way! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! WHY!!!! GOD!!! WHY!!!! AHH!!!!!!! How long do I have to SUFFER this!!!?? My entire Life!!!!!!!!!????? AHH!!!!!!!!!!

My IQ is 115??

2007-10-11T21:24:00.001+08:00

Your IQ Is 115

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average

Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius

Your Mathematical Intelligence is Genius

Your General Knowledge is Above Average

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

Hmmm... I think i can do better than that lor.. 115 aint impressive to me.. Haiz... Pls dun judge me by my IQ thank you =P